spartyon136

I’m a very competitive person and I think if I had someone to ‘compete’ against when it comes to losing weight, I think I would do so much better. I cannot personally keep myself accountable but knowing that someone else might ‘beat me’ in weight lose would drive me so much more. If only I had friends like this who would be there for me and help me along the way… I know it sounds like I’m blaming it all on other people, but its not meant to be like that. I just think the competitive side in me is yearning for something to compete in, only nothing available.

As a college student, food, or the money for food, is not always readily available. The little money I do have does not usually buy the most healthy foods as its generally more expensive, and any fresh foods go bad if not eaten fast enough.

I have realized that this has led me to having a food insecurity issue. Everytime I see free food, I feel like I HAVE to eat it. Its there, and free. Work meetings: coffee, pastries, doughnuts, breads. Go home for the weekend: come back stocked with the left overs of the most unhealthy foods ever. Samples in the grocery store: Must have!

Its not that I want these foods, but I feel like I have to have that. Does anyone else have this issue? I am trying hard to overcome it, but its so frustrating!

If you are a loyal follower of mine, you may have noticed that I continuously am ’starting over’. For once it would be nice to post something on a happier note. I am really struggling at this point in my life and don’t know how to overcome these obstacles.

And the worst part is, its not that I can’t do it — because I have before! I lost 75lbs in the past. I haven’t gained much of this back (thank goodness), but its still not where I want to be. I am not at my ‘happy weight’.

I just hope that some day, in the future, there will be a bright side to these posts..

Every time I visit my parents/boyfriend, I get so far off track. Adding the superbowl in there doesnt help either. I am really going to need support getting back on track.

I did okay this weekend. I work long hours most weekends so I find it harder to stay on track. I think that I did relatively well.

I honestly think something is wrong with my scale. I don’t think that it is very accurate, and it makes me wonder if the numbers I am seeing are real (they are usually on the low side). I should probably just buy a new one.

So I was doing really good keeping up with the 30 day shred. Then I let me self fall off the train and had FOUR DAYS OFF!! That is so terrible. Especially when you are supposed to do it every day! I think I pretty much need to just start over, which is highly depressing.

Hope everyone is having a good monday! I’m off to class and ready to make this week a successful one!!

I think part of my lack of success in weight loss is in the minimal sleep I get. Between work, school, and everything else going on, my sleep schedule is so messed up. I sleep about 5 hours a night and usually get an hour or so nap during the day. So frustrating! For once, I just want to go to bed on time. Even when I can go to bed on time, I can’t get myself to do it. Ughhhhh!!

I get in this rut where I eat the same thing all the time. I lose a few pounds, so its stuck in my mind that what I ate that week was the only thing to eat if I want to lose weight.

I need to find some new recipes! Everyday, I eat oatmeal, pasta with spinach, broccoli, and snow peas in balsamic vinegar, and fish, rice, and veggies for dinner. I throw in a snack of veggies, snack of fruit, snack of 100 cal pack, and dessert of jell-o sugar free mouse with ff cool whip.

A few days a week, I’ll mix it up with some soup or a lean cuisine, but thats really about it.

If I never saw pasta again, I’d be perfectly okay with this.

Now starts the search for new recipes!

Does anyone else have this problem?

 I eat so well throughout the day. I try to keep a balanced diet and never over indulge. I am trying to teach myself that its okay to not be “I need to unbutton my pants after every meal” full. Infact, that its bad to feel like this.

 But everyday, around 4 or 5, I binge and eat everything in the house. Its not that I am necessarily hungry, but I just eat! So frustrating!!!

…or at least I’m hoping. 

Yesterday, I decided to take the 30 day shred challenge (Jillian Michaels). I have done it off and on in the past but haven’t stuck to it for more than 3 days. According to the program, you have to do it EVERY day for 30 days. It’s only a 20 minute workout, but for me, its hard to get motivated when I don’t even get one day off!!

In addition to this workout plan, I am also trying to limit myself to a 1200 cal diet. I’ve done it in the past, and it is what works best for me. Getting myself to write everything down is the biggest issue.

 Hope everyone has a great monday! <3